Feeling Sick

By: Haley Guthrie

after hoarding
Xanax and Seroquel
under their noses
was I more or less

the latest battle
of illness is just
another test
of willpower
and idiotic faith

feeling sick
with ideas
left me longing
for deeper
than death

the weapons
were locked away-
everything hanging
on the pegboard
on the garage wall,

a duffel bag full:
saws, shears,
hammers, hatchet,

too busy
counting scars
i was desperate
to summon
to the surface

what will i hurt
the hurt with now

Haley Rose Guthrie lives with her husband and her one true love (her dog), Benjamin Dingo. She loves hiking and camping. She’s an innovative costume creator. Halloween is life.

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